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  Mr. Wicker

  Mr. Wicker © 2014 by Maria Alexander

  Published by Raw Dog Screaming Press

  Bowie, MD

  All rights reserved.

  First Edition

  Cover: Ryan Rice

  Book design: Jennifer Barnes

  Printed in the United States of America

  www.RawDogScreaming.com

  To those who’ve been embraced by The Void

  and are afraid it won’t let go

  and

  To Rebekah

  who lived with

  unspeakable childhood memories

  ...memories materialized through the strength of implacable evocation and walked like human beings through the cloistered rooms.

  Gabriel Garcia Marquez, One Hundred Years of Solitude

  Mr. Wicker

  Maria Alexander

  Chapter 1

  The blood welled vermilion. A lovely color. It reminded Alicia of a picture she’d painted as a child for her grandfather. She then pressed the razor into the other vein.

  The blood—no longer hers, but a free thing—ran from her stinging wrists and dribbled over one side of the bathtub to the black and white tile. A few drops bruised the sleeve of her emerald silk robe. Her legs stretched before her under the water. Even as a child she could see the veins in her legs creeping deep beneath her skin. She clenched her fists, nails digging into her palms, and the blood ran faster.

  Alicia’s career lay in pieces, shredded by the fits of fortune. As her wrists bled, the books she’d written, old and new, burned in the fireplace. Her husband had run off some time ago, leaving her the house with a double mortgage. Relationships, family—they, too, had run out, some sooner than later. She’d waited for the good things to come, nature abhorring a vacuum, but things continued to leave.

  She’d been no longer able to summon the strength to believe it would ever get better, despite what therapists had told her over the years. The idea that it was her responsibility to hope as the cold void kissed her cheeks angered her against God Himself, and after the doctor’s call that morning, that’s when she’d decided she would take the last thing that could be taken. She’d prove God was an asshole for expecting her to hope while He took everything else.

  God had repossessed her car last week. As she’d watched the tow truck haul it away, the black waters washed over her head. With nothing to look forward to and no hope of retrieving her life, she had one option. If she’d had pills, she would have used them to escape the pain because they are surer by far. But being the sort that hated taking pills and rarely even had prescriptions, she hadn’t any. So she’d propped a copy of Gray’s Anatomy (what better way for an author to learn how to turn characters into cadavers?) on the bathroom counter surrounded by burning candles. She’d wedged it open to Chapter 5, “The Wrist and Hand,” and marked her own wrists where she should best cut. All the while, a gothic anthem blasted from her office stereo, vibrations tickling the floor.

  Alicia slid further under the water, the glistening warmth lapping at her chin. The blood swelled like the delicate tendrils of a jellyfish around her breasts and under her arms. The water eased the pain of the incisions, just as she had read. Her head swam with shadows as her sight faded. Fucker. Taking, hiding. Keeping. No more. She sobbed. Shuddering. Breath shallow. Her reason flew with the winds of departure. Whatever is beyond, it must be kinder. But if there is nothing...

  ...nothing...

  Nothing but an inky hallway...widening...to a tunnel.

  Alicia cried as she walked, sorrow blossoming in her chest. The tunnel air was still and damp. She stepped forward, her wrists bleeding, soles scraping gravel and rough wooden boards.

  A train tunnel.

  A pinprick flickered so weakly in the distance that at first she questioned its existence, much less its momentum. But it fled toward her at high speed—a mass of howling, gyring light.

  Wind buffeted her robe.

  She turned and ran, shadows wavering across the tracks. She screamed as the howling splintered and fanned at her back, a monstrous chorus of shouts and shrieks. Her foot struck a broken board. She fell, the train’s lights spilling over her shoulders. She started to rise. It was too late.

  Instead of roaring iron, a scented wind—cotton candy, hot cocoa, and cut grass—billowed over her. A joyful, swirling throng of laughing, squealing sprites. The souls of children. They clambered over her miserable form, happy and loud and ghostly white, as if she did not exist. Their faces pressed through the vapor. “Marco...!” “Polo...” “Doooon’t tickle me!” “He likes you.” “Ring-a-round the rosie, a pocket full of posies...”

  It all felt so...familiar.

  Alicia reached out to them, the vapors trailing between the fingers of her open hands. The wind carried away what she longed for, everything that had escaped her in life. “Come back!” She cried, unheard. “Help me—please!” But they disappeared into the darkness as swiftly as they had overtaken her, playground banter echoing.

  “Goddamn you!” She considered following them, but they were too fast. Perhaps there were more like them further down the track? She needed the company of angels, especially since she didn’t feel like one. She stood and turned forward again, eager to find new companions, but now found a wall of heavenly light, pure and warm, within arm’s reach. Amazed, she placed her hands into the warmth. Soft. Soothing. She stepped into it.

  Although she’d expected to be weightless and formless as her consciousness shifted, she emerged among dusty library stacks with her flesh and form intact. She heard nothing but the gentle cacophony of timepieces. Tick-tock, click, click, tick-tock. Grinning bronze imps cradled gas-lit lamps, faces protruding between towering bookcases. The lamps cast a dim gloss over the swayback shelves burdened with black, hardbound tomes.

  As she squinted at the stacks, Alicia noted that the bindings of many books were freshly woven, a name inked in gold with gothic pen strokes on each spine. The names of artists. Celebrities. Common folk, like her next-door neighbor from childhood who had been arrested in college for selling cocaine. And a girl she’d hated in her dorm at NYU who slept with the professors.

  Alicia’s sticky, pallid fingers traced the spines. She’d loved libraries even as a child, spending endless hours pouring over old ghost stories and Agatha Christie mysteries. Nostalgia heated her lifeless heart. The skin of her wrists gaped at the wounds, blood crusting the edges. She’d upturned her wrists to examine them when the creaking of wood elsewhere in the library startled her. Terrified, she held her breath as she listened.

  “In a time and out of time, in time the ink shall sing.”

  The words drizzled icily over her skin as a deep voice sang. She peered down the aisle. A scratching picked up where the caroling left off. The presence invited some sort of meeting, but she wasn’t sure it was the kind of meeting she wanted.

  Whatever lies beyond, it must be kinder. That was, indeed, her last thought in life. Perhaps she was right.

  She continued down the aisle toward the voice. As the aisle drew to an end, the floor cleared and widened into a vast study. Here hung the many clocks that were ticking, clacking, whirring. Some were round with black-numbered faces and hammered silver borders, while others were square with teensy doors and eaves housing heralds ready to spring forth on the hour. None of them had been set at the same hour, and nothing indicated if they represented an hour anywhere at all. Here and there stood thick-legged oak tables piled high with dark books. Tarnished candelabras dripping with blazing candles crowned the literary heaps. She moved around the tables that obscured the scratcher and caroler, if indeed they were the same person.

  Scritch, scritch, scritch. Scritch, scritch, scritch, scritch...

  “Blood and trust they t
urn to dust, each secret that they bring.”

  A window smoky with lavender twilight arched over a desk littered with books and weeping columns of burning wax. Over the desk hunched a sooty-headed character. The scratching paused as he dipped a quill into an inkwell that sat beside an old-fashioned black telephone with large finger holes for dialing. The scratching resumed with vigor.

  Arrested by fear, Alicia stood beside one of the tables. She was trying to accept death as it came, strange as it was. She was unsure of her role in it, as death so far defied any concept she’d heard in life. But now, as this begrimed creature turned to face her, she dropped any pretense of ever hoping to understand. If in life God had taken from her, He now gave like a mad uncle tearing pages from a fairy tale book and handing them out like banknotes. A thick char covered the man’s otherwise well-formed body, which was draped with the burned rags of a gray robe and cowl. His sea green eyes were wet with humanity. He smiled jaggedly, his lips flaking obsidian. At last, he spoke.

  “Alicia Baum.” He sunk his quill in the well. “The once-beloved horror writer, no less. At last you’ve come to see...Mr. Wicker.” He seemed fond of his name, smiling as he said it. His eyes recorded the contours of her body, and his expression softened. He said nothing, however, and watched her with even more interest than before.

  A raven cawed, sliding through the air to alight on a nearby stack of books and preen its oily feathers. Soon another raven landed next to it, strutting back and forth along the edge of a large tome as it cocked an eye at Alicia. More feathers rustled elsewhere in the cavernous library, but the beasts that shook them remained hidden.

  Alicia stepped back, putting the table corner between her and this blackened man-thing, this gentleman incubus. “Is this hell?” The depression and anger that drove the blade to her veins was rekindled.

  “Only for me,” he replied. His eyes wandered from her body to the heights of the repository shelves. “And those who wish to remember.”

  “I don’t understand. Aren’t these books of people’s sins?”

  “Sins?” He laughed, examining the book he’d just penned. Hands with long, crisp fingers crouched like tarantulas on the page. One of the ravens leapt with a squawk from its book-perch and landed on Mr. Wicker’s shoulder. “Perhaps, in a way,” he continued. “This is the Library of Lost Childhood Memories.”

  “I see. Gauging by how grim this place is, I don’t suppose these are the lost memories of when a child went to Disneyland and ate his first churro, or fell asleep apple-cheeked and adorable during church.”

  “No.”

  “Hmm.”

  “What did you think you would find?”

  “Here?”

  “In death.”

  “Oh,” she said. “Well, I figured it had to be better than life, which was unbearable. It had to be either blank like a chalkboard or full of fuzzy amber light beings I’d read about in New Age books who want me to evolve or something.” She looked him over a moment. “Not that I want to evolve. And not that you’re exactly a fuzzy amber light being.”

  He rose from his chair, the ornately carved legs scraping the wooden floor, and closed the distance between them. Alicia found her fear and heat in his dour, half-lidded eyes and dominant advance. One hand raked into her blood-and-bath-soaked hair and the other caught up a slit wrist, bringing her death’s bouquet to his nose. His touch left ash on her arm. Everything that had repulsed her about him sweetened as he slowly inhaled. An incubus was he, and more. She also took in his scent, a smudgy amber smell instead of the burned flesh she’d expected.

  As the scent blossomed in her nose, she never wanted anyone like she wanted him.

  “You slipped into the light because you love the darkness,” he said. Those sea green eyes—embers, damp and direct—slid from hers to the sagging line of her emerald robe as it sank from her shoulders, caught between her breasts.

  “I don’t love darkness,” she stammered, half-drunk with him. “I don’t even like the shades drawn.” It was true. Not the literal darkness, anyway. She had even died in a well-lit bathroom. What disturbed her was not his accusation, but that this scribe of pain could spread her legs as easily as he palmed open pages of a book.

  “Take off your robe.”

  With a pull of her sash and a shrug of her shoulders, the bloodstained robe slipped to the floor, unveiling her waxen skin. He touched her chastely at the shoulders as he surveyed the continent of her alabaster flesh. “Perfect,” he breathed with a moan, his look hardening her nipples. “Absolutely perfect. It will do well.”

  She cooled when she heard that last phrase. “It will do well?” She pulled away. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

  He sighed. “What it means is that I want your skin.” He placed a hand on her neck, more lover than assassin. “I’m tired of being the keeper of memory, and I want to leave. You don’t want life. I do. To be human again, I will need your skin.”

  “Look, I’m not giving anyone anything,” she growled, swiping her robe from the floor. “I’ve had too much taken away already. Besides, I don’t have living skin anymore. I’m dead. Or haven’t you noticed that?”

  He retreated to his chair, facing the room. “Perhaps you are now, but I could change that.” He dug an elbow into the armrest as his hand propped an ebony cheek. “What if I told you that I could explain everything that’s happened in your life?” He leaned forward. “What if I told you that everything terrible in your life happened because of these missing memories? That they’ve controlled you from the day you gave them to me. That someone died for them.”

  “I’d say you’re mad.”

  “I’d say, suicide girl, that you’re hardly in a position to argue.”

  A rush of realization. “Oh, crap.” She knotted her sash. “Is this one of those near-death hallucinations?” She threw up her hands. “How stupid of me. Of course.” Even the dim library seemed to brighten a shade with this insight. The tunnel, the lights: common imagery to the myth of modern mortality. The rest—well—an LSD flashback, no doubt.

  At that thought, a howling maw of shifting light opened from between two stacks. The candle flames bowed from its palpable hum and flux. Mr. Wicker winced. The ravens shrieked as they fled the portal.

  “Ha! The Afterlife Express has arrived!” Her eyes moved over Mr. Wicker with the same half-lidded, impassioned look he used when he studied her naked body. “You’ve been a stunning hallucination, but I must find eternal peace before God takes that, too. The miserable bastard.” As she turned toward the light, he reached behind to the desk and raised something before him.

  “Don’t you want to read your book?”

  Her fingers twitched like live wires and she shook, a hot bolt of fright riveting her spine. She looked back, curiosity compelling her. His eyes burned as he held the tome, her name branded on the cover. Mastering her delusion—for this was what it must be—she forced its face into the waters of improbability until it stopped kicking, and she entered the light.

  As soon as she was gone, Mr. Wicker sighed and grinned, pleased with himself. Facing the window, he picked up the black telephone, and spoke into the receiver.

  “9-1-1 please.”

  Chapter 2

  Dr. James Farron winced and backed away as five-year-old Jesse pointed the laser gun at his crotch. “Bow to me, you Raffabarf!”

  He certainly felt like a Raffabarf at the moment, whatever that was. Black circles and bloodshot eyes—no amount of espresso could supplement his sleep deficit from conducting research. Dark brown hair and a boyish face revealed his Irish ancestry, but his party habits (or lack thereof) did not.

  As the child stood fast in his aggressive stance outside the therapy room, Dr. Farron beseeched Jesse’s mother. “Mrs. Flemming, I can’t let him into the room with that.” He indicated the laser gun with a nod of his head.

  “It’s play therapy, isn’t it?” she snipped. She wore yoga pants and a stretch camisole. Hair the color of root beer in sunlight and s
kin overly tanned, she was soaking in the vapors of some expensive perfume. Her cell phone bleated out an electronic merengue and she flipped it open. “Those are his toys. Play with him, for Chrissake!” She threw a skeptical glance at Dr. Farron’s Marvin the Martian tie. Then, she spoke sweetly into the cell: “Namaste!”

  The parents were so often worse than the children.

  Resigned, Dr. Farron opened the door to the therapy room and Jesse ran inside, the laser gun flashing as it sputtered and rattled like the back end of a Harley. Dr. Farron rolled his eyes and followed the child, slamming the door behind him.

  He pulled up a stool while Jesse ran around in circles, blasting the “Raffabarf” dollhouses, dinosaurs, dolls, puppets, and crayons into tiny plasmatrons. “How are you, Jesse?”

  “I’M MASSIMUS BLASSER!”

  “Wow. You are very angry today, Jesse. You seem like you want to hurt somebody with that gun.”

  Jesse’s mother had reported that Jesse was having nightmares, was defiant, and could not concentrate on anything for more than a few moments. He was also biting adults. He obviously wanted to hurt somebody.

  “MASSIMUS BLASSER WILL KILL YOU!”

  “I see. Why don’t you play with some of the other toys here?” He picked up a bucket full of dinosaurs. “We’ve got lots of new dinosaurs and soldiers.” He encouraged children to use anything but guns to express their rage as they played out their emotional dramas. He learned that children would often tell their own stories if they were allowed to express themselves in a safe environment.

  This was not always true, however. Not lately. The children’s stories had been drying up, leaving vast dunes of empty memory. One child after another had stopped talking to him. Stopped playing. With great concern for the wellbeing of his tiny patients, he’d turned them back to their parents with unsatisfactory explanations for their behavior. These failures sometimes crippled him with doubt as to his abilities as a doctor. At the age of thirty-five, he’d already had his share of tragedy and he wondered if his difficulties were interfering with his work, which in turn fed his self-doubt. All this sent him sliding along a Möbius strip of despair.